Monday, January 17, 2005

Collective energy of Hope

Had heard a lot about Guru Ramdev (his programs come on aastha TV channel) and his curing many patients via his yoga shivir (camps) from some medical practitioner and common people. Many people had got improvement in their medical conditions in couple of months, even by practicing on their own after watching TV programmes, problems which many years of treatments by doctors couldn't reduce.

Had managed to get a pass for this. Camp timings are daily morning 5:00-7:00am. Had to wake up around 4:00am to freshen up as the camp site is around 15 minutes drive in night, w/o any signal to stop in between, and it's better to be slightly early at camp.

When I reached the site, it was a total different atmosphere. Must be 15-20 thousands people braving the cold under open sky, sunrise happens around 7:00 these days. Tiredness of wakingup so early against the routine was as if never was there. The place was so full of energy, that was charging the individuals also. It was energy of hope, hopes that they will get cured or atleast see significant improvement in their conditions - they have heard a lot about sort of miraculous improvements.

I have experienced tremendous energy of joy, hope earlier also couple of years back. It was some regional newyear day or some such festival, when I happened to be in Thiruannamalai (Tamilnadu). Girivallam (taking rounds of holy hill) route passes through city, as well as small village. It was near that village, in early morning, sun not yet risen but not dark either... people cleaning around their houses and decorating with rangolis, materials varied depending upon their financial standings then, but everyone was full of happiness, some kind of positive energy in that atmosphere... people not chattering around, a soothing calm filling everything, everyone around. I have been on this route couple of times, but this experience there had been so strong first time then.

Thursday, January 06, 2005

A Problem, A Solution : Traffic

A road was widened because traffic issues on that road were increasing with years. There used to be big trees on both sides of the road that provided passers by shade from scorching sun and rainfall. Lot of these trees were more than 100 years old, some even older. Trees were cut amidst protests from environment groups. Road was widened.

The times further to that saw opening of couple of famous food/beverages outlets by the sides, adding to existing good enough crowd pulling joints. Crowd is even more. Though road is widened, but so are the cars and two-wheelers sizes and their nos. Though there are yellow lines, marking the parking area by the road side, bigger size vehicles sometimes overshoot that by 2-4 feets.

Effective roadsize is still the same, perhaps lesser than what it used to be, people density on road around the joints has only increased. If something is not there, it's those trees.

There are other places also in same city, where roads sizes have been widened more than double, a lovely strech of around 2Kms, now doesn't have a single tree to give protect from rain/sun. Since road is quite wide now, average speed of people driving by has increased a lot, making crossing difficult for old and young people. This road passes through residential areas, school and there is only one crossing around half km. from one end, that forces people to drive in wrong directions, causing risk to not only themselves but others. You may not mind taking a U turn of less than a km, but what you do when you have one opening is 50-100 mts from you in wrong direction and right direction is a U turn of around 3 kms and it's part of your daily route couple of times a day. Not only this adds to more fuel expenditure, but at times causes more expenditures of time and money also for people.

Tuesday, December 21, 2004

A problem : A solution

In some building couple of companies under same management had their offices. Each floor had two western style toilets - one for males, one for females; for past couple of years. There hadn't been many females in entire building, a dozen or so at all the three floors.

One day the receptionist on ground floor found a male using the ladies toilet and questioned him on this. She got to learn that many people did the same. Her response was that she would raise the matter even if the owner of the companies acted same way.

Don't know what happened further, but some days later saw the ground floor ladies toilet labelled as gents toilet.

That receptionist no longer works in any company in that building.

Sunday, July 11, 2004

Degradation in daily life

software industry environment gives a lot. if I look deeply in things, every act of people around have been useful and there is a reason, why they are behaving the way they behave. the reasons beyound their comprehensions often, they are just mediums, like i am.

thanks to these people and their acts, more they have acted in their ways, more it has strengthened the will to be a human being in me, more it has helped me in identifying/finding/seeing/knowing the things, for which I have been striving for many years and make improvements in self.

one such event that happened last week, acted like a conscious shock. some contradictory behaviour of an individual, in organisation i have been working for at present, irritated me a lot and while reading the electronic conversation i loudly muttered 'bastard'. it was quite an shock to my ears - the intensity of negative emotions of other person impermeating me this much!! and then things cycled through before eyes.. how it has been slowly happening in past 3 years.. first a negative emotion in head when someone drove very rashly and caused accident possibility, then a soft muttering when some (not all people are that variety) car/three wheeler/ two-wheeler driver drove in such a way and speed that accumulated rain water on road got splashed over you and spoiled things.. and this soft muttering grew slightly louder and louder.. thankfully, always had enough control to not let it take control of me. how slowly the words like this one have been entering my system slowly from environment, using the causes around.

for others, rather a lot of people in this organisation, as I observed in past 2-3 years, it is a minor thing rather nothing to be paid attention to. for me it was a big degradation in me.

i reflected over this and prayed to god for strength to recover from this and similar self-degradations and aimed at trying to be more conscious and aware about how negative energies try to affect me, try to take control of me.

the very same night, there was a test. while on the way home around 10:30pm in night, at a crossing, a speeding car almost had me, if i didn't manage to apply brakes in time, and surprisingly the brakes got applied as if perfectly. thanks to God, I remembered the strivings, aims and resolutions earlier from the day. and surprising no expletive came out of my mouth, not even a soft mutter, nothing came in feeling, not even in head. one person riding the cycle, perhaps he would also have got the impact?? said something in local language something to the effect about bad driving of car person, i didn't understand all of it, but his emotions were not agitated either. somehow it was a good feeling that I didn't feel even the need to utter an expletive. I shook my head sideways in response to this person. and we both just continued as if nothing had happened.

I learned something unknowingly from this person, whom I don't even know, nor will ever know.

We call ourselves educated and use filthy english words, how different we are then those people whom we criticise, look down upon for their language and behaviours. Saying something in english rather than local language doesn't make it different.

so far since then, it is calm. i have been able to practice calm and every act of individuals around now looks quite different. in b/w for some short moments negativities have tried to take control of me in various ways, but thanks to almighty one or other form of help has always been there to remind me, to shake me out of it. things like a window popup, or a new mail from someone, or the colleague who sits next to me and has been a very good help in this effort of self improvement. he just casually stands up and possibly even unknown to him, why he did that, he happens to put his hand on my shoulder, or someone comes asking for something to divert my attention... different ways and forms of god-sent help. i just have to keep my eyes/ears/mind/feelings open and receptive. if i don't help myself, god won't be able to help me either.